Sorry I’ve been posting so infrequently lately! I wanted to explain to you all what’s been going on with me in the past few months, and why I’ve been AWOL…
Back at the end of September I joined an online dating site, almost as a joke. Two of my close friends decided to try online dating on secular sites, and I made a profile on CatholicMatch.com basically to appease them.
I didn’t message anyone, and didn’t feel drawn to anyone who messaged me. In mid-October I went to delete my profile….and instead ended up, somehow, on one message in particular, rather than the delete page. When I looked at the profile of the guy who sent it, I realized we had an intriguing amount in common, especially our mutual interest in development work - I have a degree in International Development, he’s a doctor who spent a year overseas working at a Jesuit-run orphanage.
We started talking, and basically haven’t stopped ever since. We connect on every level possible - spiritually, intellectually, emotionally, our senses of humour…and now it’s time to see if we connect in person!
….In five days I’m going to visit him…halfway across the world. Normally I would be all about the guy coming to visit the girl, and that was how it was going to go - he had a flight booked to see me and everything! But I figured, hey, it’s summer in Australia, and meanwhile in Canada I’m freezing my butt off, wishing I could go traveling…why not take a vacation and also meet a guy who has quickly becoming one of my best friends?
I’m both excited and nervous for us to meet. Don’t worry - I’m taking all the usual precautions when you meet someone IRL that you know from online, just in case - I’m staying at a hotel, meeting up at first in a public place, etc. - but I’ve definitely vetted him enough online and talked to him for long enough that I have no doubts he’s a great guy, and completely legit. Still, I just wanted to let you all know that I’m being pragmatic and very practical about the whole thing!
………although, hey, speaking of not being practical and getting ahead of ourselves…he and I haaaaaave discussed that if we hit it off as well in person as we do online, it likely won’t be long before we’re married!
In the midst of all this I’ve been having serious struggles with sin - especially with lust. It’s like finally experiencing the possibility of a true and lasting earthly love is churning up all of the garbage that’s still left in my soul! I’m really struggling, and being snowed in at home several times combined with having been really sick means that I haven’t got to Mass since Christmas :(
It’s so crazy that both my biggest spiritual struggle in a long time and the most wonderful thing to happen to me in an equally long time are going on simultaneously. That leads me to believe there must be a looot of spiritual attack going on around me.
So hey, if any of you could spare a prayer or two for me and my lovely gentleman - for our first meeting to go well, for us to be drawn to and attracted to one another in person (my biggest fear is that we won’t be!!), and for the future of our relationship, whatever God may will it to be, that would be so lovely! And if you could spare an extra prayer for my spiritual protection and turning away from sin, that would be amazing!
As always, I’m here for you if you have any questions, comments, prayer requests, or just need a friendly ear to listen to what’s going on with you. xoxo - Ally